old journal i found, before transformation

i feel like i am trying to make him someone that he's not. i need to be ok with whatever happens. i love him and if he's not the one, then i need to be ok with it. i need to feel like i am a special girl - whoever's my mate will be there for me. i will be taken care of. if this is not the relationship then things will work out. it's not the end of the world - i need affection, i need to hear "i love you" to me, these are important because it shows what's on your mind. and it's pleasant to be in love. i guess today i feel a bit of hope.