exhaustion

when i'm exhausted, i eat. when i have to do something i don't want to do, i eat.
touring=exhaustion. getting on planes with no sleep=something i don't want to do.
right now it's 4 in the morning and i'm tired. and hungry.
so it is completely astounding to me to be on a juice/blended fast while doing this tour.
i am getting lighter instead of the usual heavier. it's like being in heaven.
yes i am hungry and yes i want want want want that thing (sometimes bread, sometimes ice cream, sometimes these raw vegetable chips i brought with me that are burning a hole in my suitcase i want them so badly) but WHAT DO I REALLY WANT?
this light body, this light mind, this feeling of goddess, of raw pure essence, which is like an angel, floating in the sky, radiant, beautiful, and pure love.