yankee doodle

Today I did a major recording session with a legendary guy, and it went really well. But there in his kitchen was a box of Yankee Doodles, you know, the black and white cupcakes and I simple love them. Well, my twisted mind loves them, my body and belly and highest self definitely do NOT. Anyway I checked the ingredients for animal products because that is my no-go bottom line, for ethical reasons (check out this 5 minute film please
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HeempD8cJDE)
I was at this stage willing to possibly "cheat" with sugar if there wasn't any animal suffering in there, but sure enough there was milk or egg solid or something. He had granola and nuts and raisins and I stuffed my face with them. Why? I guess I was nervous or I wanted more praise for my work (he did tell me I did a great job but I wanted him to be FREAKING OUT over my greatness ha ha.) But all in all I still feel great. I need to be simultaneously easy on myself and more disciplined. Because I don't want to beat myself up over this. Or the fact that I ate an entire jar of sundried tomatoes yesterday. Because I have been doing great in general, and I am so looking forward to having the whole month of august off and really being light light light like I was in June and getting back to how fantastic I felt.
I mean, I feel fantastic now, no future required.
After all, I AM fantastic!