throwing out

I’m not sure what was harder: throwing out the Midol for period cramps or the Chanel face cream. Ooh I wanted it, I WANT IT, I MIGHT NEED IT! THAT WAS EXPENSIVE! AT LEAST GIVE IT AWAY! The voices were shouting. And the rice! I might need to cook it for someone! Or at least give it to some starving people!
Committing to not taking Advil/Midol/Cold medicine is SO intense for me but I am doing it. No more toxicity in this body. Learning how to manage pain is the biggest gift. My brother asked me incredulously – what do I do when I have a headache and I told him- take a bath, get a massage, do yoga, or just …wait. Sounds crazy right? If you were me, it would be crazy that I am able to do that right now. Me, who only needs to feel good good good at all times, and immediately.
I used to be addicted to codeine. Now I won't even take advil. WHO AM I?
Also my TV broke serendipitously, and I threw that out too. I am totally not buying into the system anymore! How bizarre of me. I love pop culture. Where did that go? And what about: The Simpsons, South Park, Flavor of Love? What about renting a movie and snuggling? NO. It’s a new life. I don’t want garbage in my house anymore. (Besides I consoled myself, I can always rent DVDS and watch on my computer!)
I don;t know though, maybe it's too extreme.
I kept a lot of my makeup though. Can’t throw that out because I am a performer. Am committing to buying organic makeup but can’t throw out my sparkly stuff yet.
Next to go: My pots and pans. Though this is a tough one so I haven’t done it yet. Now THAT’s a commitment!!