No more X's on the mouth

Gotta just do it and share. Let it flow, must start writing for the sake of my little one that is sitting in a corner of guck. Last Tuesday at our Integration workshop I found out that I was keeping secrets. Not like dirty little secrets or secrets that someone else had told me to keep but, secrets more in the sense of keeping my mouth shut and stuffing my feelings so no one could see what was going on inside of me. These are indeed the secrets that had taken shape and had formed into untold communication of feelings...thus keeping to myself and eventually turning in and against myself for holding these secret feelings. I ended up masking these pains with alcohol and drugs. How interesting it was that we went into the liver and here is where I found my secret under the sticky toxic mess I had put my liver through. After Tuesday...I sat with this little girl and asked her what she would like me to do. So simply the answer was given: write and write so everyone can read -- whatever it is, if it makes sense, if it doesn't...it doesn't matter -- just write it out into the world. This is how your secrets will be released. Of course easier said than done I thought. Then to top it off -- the voice from inside said...everyday. Write something everyday until you can verbally communicate what it is that you want to say. Of course again I thought...easier said than done. I realized that what was being perscriped to me was the practice of persistance and follow through in order to see the outcomes for the disease to be cured. Okay deep inner voice... I will honor what you have to say. And thank you deep inner voice for showing me where my voice has been x'ed out and how to let my true voice speak again.

A is for beginning and B is for starting out with A. A and B step together and carry me along the way. Without one there is no other and without the other there is no one...with both we can see each other and together we can become one and thus the link goes on to another.